2 Kids No Husband No Job

Well, I started off with 1 kid, a husband, and no job. I had always wanted to be a stay at home mom and I was finally realizing my dream. But as always there was a price to pay. I ended up with 1 kid, no husband, and no job. Keep in mind I waited 2 years for the husband to join me across the country, meanwhile he had a new girlfriend. So that was the end of that dream. At least the whole package. But then I met someone new and thought eureka, I sure am lucky. Come to find out not so lucky. He wasn't the sharpest tool in the shed and preferred to start a project, grab a beer, watch a movie, and you guessed it, never finish the project. So it should be of no surprise that I ended that marriage with a lot of unfinished projects, which included a new baby girl. So here I am finishing what these men helped start; 2 kids to raise with no husband and no job. You may be saying, "put your kids in daycare and get a job", but I'm still struggling with that decision. I didn't have children so that someone else could raise them and I feel like if I were to get a job that's exactly what would become reality.